Depressed Mode – Miscarriage

Category: Advice, Family

The previous of post of mine do resembles the continuous sadness that had happened to me n beloved husband several days ago. MISCARRIAGE… its really a scary word .. however it did happened to me and in fact the pain that each of every woman experiences the miscarriage were really HURTS!!!… It just like your backbone and lower parts of your body are tearing apart ” just like the movie “ALIEN” one of the captain body was cut in half.

Argh… that feeling .. really hurt and painful, can’t bear to have it again. Alhamdulillah, Allah The Greatest had helped me through the way and easily all the blood clots (nearly 500gm) were bursting out to the floor with all the tons of blood soaking to my b/w baju kurung that I had wore on Monday.

Hafila, Ayu, Nora, Pruz, Nad, and other colleagues had advice me and Fila sent me to the nearest hospital that was at the HOSPITAL SULTANAH AMINAH (HSA) JOHOR BAHRU. At first, I’m really afraid to go to the public hospital after what I’d heard from others on their bad service and unfriendly doctors and nurses. Luckily, when its my turn I didn’t felt that they are ignoring me nor rude at me however their service were very professional and treat me as first class patient :P…. sometimes I felt that at KPJ is much more lower service than HSA.

Alright… where was I? Yeah … than they (doctors… most of them are practical students from Monash University – one of the best medical university available in Malaysia…yup and they supported HSAJB.. could you just believed it?) had done ULTRASOUND scan and done a thorough survey report based on the tons of questions he asked me while im in PAINNNN~~~ sangat sakit okkk .. mcm nak beranak pun ada .. sakit senggugut tersakit didunia.. the most painful menstrual period pain I’ve ever had!!! gosh…. dont want again!!! Then I did said to the doctor that i’m in pain.. and he quickly ask the nurse to provide me with painkiller jab…. ahhh what a relief~~~

Afterwards the most critical part is that the chinese doctor inserted some device into my tut~~ and dig something into it and even add some anti-bacterial liquid into my womb.. what da~~~ I nearly shouted at him.. but my patience was above all.. I really jadi an innocent girl laa at that time.. ahakz… Well after that they realize that there still bits of clots of blood cant be removed in the womb and needed D&C tomorrow. I were asked to fast at 4pm in order for them to get me ready for the ‘deadliest D&C’ …. its something like bottle brush being stuff into my tut~~ and rolling around inside.. OMG… I wont be doing that (I said to myself… Allah please help me .. I dont want the D&C.. i rather have COMPLETE ABORTION than INCOMPLETE ABORTION)…

Sample of videos on D&C (Dont PLAY it if you are afraid of blood and operation of body parts)

I can’t sleep later that night just imagine what is going to be happened to me tomorrow~~~ jeng2 the next day….

There were at least 5-6 doctors(mixed Chinese and Indians) accompanied by senior doctor that is Dr. Faizal (most coolest dr. i’ve known.. very the bald and shiny) ahakz.. still young tho… well the best part is that the Dr. Faizal asked me how’s my condition this morning and all those doctors looking at me anxiously :P… I said to him ” Im fine, all the clots of blood seem to have gone and my pad have only blood stain…” then the doctor asked the incharged doctors to put me into the treatment room for another ULTRASOUND scan to find out whether my status of INCOMPLETE ABORTION going to be changed to COMPLETE ABORTION… Well guess what .. my prayers had went to Allah … and I DONT HAVE TO DO DNC, only an appointment with the Dr. Faizal on this 4th august 2010 at hospital pontian will actually provide with the latest result of my womb condition.

I’m really grateful to Allah and with his blessing, I would be the most luckiest Khalifah in the world… 🙂 Now I still need some rest and do some pantang(do’s and don’ts) during this miscarriage period. The MC only give me 7 days of rest and I would have it as fullest resting day of my life. Do’a for me ok.

09 Jul

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